Why?

I have had moments, especially in childhood, where I questioned why I have cerebral palsy. Most days the fact that I have CP doesn’t enter my mind. I take the day as it comes and deal with challenges as they arise. But there are those days, that it sneaks into my mind and I can’t help but wonder, “Why?”.  I ask why not from a place of pity or sadness, but from the deep belief that I have a disability for a reason.

The other day my friend posted  a piece from her design business. The quote on it has been resonating with me since.

The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.” —Mark Twain.
My friend and mentor, Nicole Luongo changed my life by being brave enough to share her SDR journey. She led me to that day. Since the day I read her article, I felt the gravity of what her words meant in my life, I have felt a deep sense of responsibility to “pay it forward” and do the same for someone else.

On my 33rd birthday, The Mighty published my first blog post. A few days later it was posted on the Cerebral Palsy Foundation’s Facebook page. A week later it was shared on the Cerebral Palsy Association of BC in Canada and then later by the Weinberg Family Cerebral Palsy Center at Columbia University Medical Center in New York City.

I say this not to pat myself on the back (although I am pretty psyched about it). I say this because in finding my voice about CP and SDR, I have reached people. I see now that allowing myself to be vulnerable and by embracing the piece of me that is CP, has changed me for the better.  I have found my voice, and in that, my purpose to share it. I am fulfilled and excited in a ways I have never been.